For the first time since I started chemo in March I actually felt normal for a few days this week. My mind was clear, I had energy, I felt positive and strong. I headed back to work with great gusto and enthusiasm. Just goes to show that down time is necessary and to stop being so stoic. So when I woke yesterday and felt blah I did what my body asked, and I rested and slept until 2pm. I am amazed at how much I can sleep. A bit of excitement when I look in the mirror too. I actually think my hair is starting to grow back. It is soft and fluffy like duck down.
I attended a women's development day on Tuesday along with my colleagues. One of the facilitators asked "what is your 5 year plan". She presented us with a work/personal plan to complete while we were there.
My mind went into emotional overload. I held it together but it hit home (again) that stats say I have 60% survival rate over the next five years. So when I was presented with this plan to complete, all I could think was I just have to hope my body survives all the carcinogenic medicine they have put into me and the five years of medication of oestrogen blockers do their thing and don't go looking for cancer cells.
My wish is to be here in five years and have quality of life. I don't know how to plan for that though. I just have to believe it and take care of myself.
One of my chemo buddies has completed her treatment. It is cause for a celebration. Now me and my other chemo buddy just have to finish ours.
So back on the chemo process on Tuesday (round 7). The end is getting closer...yippee.
My mind went into emotional overload. I held it together but it hit home (again) that stats say I have 60% survival rate over the next five years. So when I was presented with this plan to complete, all I could think was I just have to hope my body survives all the carcinogenic medicine they have put into me and the five years of medication of oestrogen blockers do their thing and don't go looking for cancer cells.
My wish is to be here in five years and have quality of life. I don't know how to plan for that though. I just have to believe it and take care of myself.
One of my chemo buddies has completed her treatment. It is cause for a celebration. Now me and my other chemo buddy just have to finish ours.
So back on the chemo process on Tuesday (round 7). The end is getting closer...yippee.
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