26/09/2014
I felt rather sad today to be leaving my workplace for the next five weeks, embarking on stage 3 of the four part cancer process. This time I will be flying solo, so to speak.
I love my job and the people I work with, so to say goodbye was quite hard and a bit weird. I didn't think I would feel like that. I guess if I was going on an overseas holiday, it would all be exciting and adventurous and everyone would be excited for me. Can't say this derives the same feeling. I should turn it all into a positive and look at this stage as another part of the cure from cancer and the adventure in it will be meeting new people at the Cancer Lodge - will have to work on that thought!
During chemo I had the constant support of Wayne and my colleagues when I got to work. They would send me home if I looked too worse for wear or bolster me up with humour and compassion. So going to miss that, but I'm guessing that's where the community spirit of the lodge comes in again.
Thanks for the hugs, workmates, before I left! Really appreciate them.
So from next week I foresee I have to rely on myself and lean on God that much more.
I am nervous, I have to admit, just as I was with chemo. Once I got started on chemo though I then knew roughly what to expect each time. I'm hoping radiation goes as smoothly as chemo did for me, and that I am going to be able to still work each day from the station in Hamilton. Time will tell how much tiredness has a part to play.
So tomorrow we go to Waikato Hospital for more planning - make sure the beams line up - and then treatment on Wednesday.
Hazel, Greg (the alpaca), Wayne and I are looking forward to a few days in the 'Tron.
Check out this beautiful blossom from outside my house today. Just had to share it with you.
Will keep you posted on stage 3...
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