All Clear

01/08/2014

Today I feel 'alive' for the first time in six months since diagnosis. I now have confirmation that my cancer is not there today, that the chemo is working, that is hasn't spread anywhere else and that we are on the right track. Whoever would think chemo would be my friend (the Hemsley family told me that and now I understand). It may knock me sideways, up and down, but today after nearly three weeks off chemo, I feel alive! So there is always a positive somewhere amongst the crap.

I start chemo again on Thursday with two to go, possibly three if we count the one they cancelled while the investigation went on.  

The oncologist apologised for causing me concern when there was nothing there, but I was wrapped to get the scans and confirmation all is well. Wayne said it was his best birthday present ever - and he meant it! So love that man...❤️

Surprisingly to me, radiation treatment now doesn't seem so daunting. I don't know why, it is just sitting more comfortably with me. We have a visit with the surgeon, Mr Truter, on Monday. Will be interesting to see if he got an answer to the letter he wrote to Radiology about not doing radiation to my lymph nodes as he said I would end up with lymphodema in the left arm. He reckons he got it all and when you have scans that say you are clear, well, it sets you thinking. Watch this space.

So today in Taupo it is a stunning winter's day: blue skies, from the kitchen window I can see the snow on top of the Kaimanawas glistening back at me, the lake is calm, no wind...wow!

It is so peaceful. I just wish we could bring peace to other parts of the world and they could experience peace and calm and see how much better peace is than fighting each other. 

This week pray and/or send positivity for the children who are suffering in war zones across the world. The 6 o'clock world has shown some pretty horrific sights this week and being a mother, I can't imagine what they are going through trying to protect their babies.